keep tellin myself. everythin will b alrite. trying to persuade and hynotise, trying to just numb it.

but you broke it. i know u don mean to.

but, cant you just try to control? cant u be supportive?

im sorry i know im wrong.

hope that you know i don't mean it.

So,

it has been hmm. 2 months plus,

wanna list things that i had done in tis past 2 months (not in order)

- started uni life (duh) - meet new frens every single day - have lots of hws and assignments -hav loads of exams -had failed maths test T.T -had done suppositories, creams, powders, suspensions, emulsions, linctus, hmm, goin to do ointments and paste. - had met ppl who are bad -cried -laugh -partied -hav fun - saw sheep for my 1st time in my whole life (not to talk bout the ones i counted to go to bed) the real one.. cuteee.. i saw black, white, creamy, d one tht wanted to eat jia yi  -had lots of ice cream in the cold -had pizzas and fries for weeks til now. -had 2 bottles of pringles finish in one day -went to York, Wales - went to do pharmacy placement in Cox pharmacy -watched movie the 1st time wit Omon. cinemas here are.. well. okay i gues. i don reli like the popcorn.. haha. -shopping -nottingham games -met up wit IS mates -halloween party (sort of 1st time in my life, dressing up for it.i mean not tht i rmb of) -baked alot of apple crumbles. -learnt cpr -partied til the morning -saw ppl threw up. - ppl threw up in my hse. -hate malibu - watched new moon - goin to st mary church which i love and startin to love and hopefully have frens to go with -celebrated lots of bday parties which i think i shud stop -goin to have christmas break soon on the 11th of dec -love Yorkshire pudding lots. -escaped classes - Skipped classes -knwing everyday is God's grace.

Love God owes.

head to class now..

  She........

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn?t matter anymore

It?s not always rainbows and butterflies
It?s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door?s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don?t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

wasnt in a good mood yesterday. went out and wasted my time instead of getting things done. went to the city all by myself ytd.

tsk tsk. typical. dont wanna talk about me either.

so. 'She' i bought her back ytd. 17/Oct/2009. She's pretty. xD wanted her all this while. but coudnt seem to find the right one. and when i was so down. God put her in my eyes.

She is juz near the window. i named her. Serene. due to the reason tht i bought her on 17 of Oct. which is my best fren's Serene's bday. another good reason is tht. Serene means calm, peaceful, unaffected by disturbance.

i will love her, water her, give her sunlight( i will try my best due to the black sky here).

say hellow to my new family members.

i got them back during the goose fair las las week i guess. its a massive theme park once a year here in nottingham.i played the dart game. which i kinda lost in both games. i played twice. due to tht reason. i only got the smallest bear. still. i love them.

they are brownie(left) and onion (right)

nevertheless. i love these people.

Cheers..